I'm trying something different this year. I gave myself the first seven days of the new year to not be/do shit. Nothing. I ate bad. I didn't exercise. And Lord knows I didn't touch my blog. The first week of 2018 was extremely similar to all of 2017. A mess mixed with joy. But that was my reality, so I embraced it. Crazy enough, I feel prepared for the year better. Less planning, more executing Less dates and deadlines, more going with the flow. Taking baby steps when I need to and big steps when I feel ready. Here are my first three steps of the year.
CLARITY
I mean this literally and figuratively.
Literally, I need to do a better job cleaning my glasses.
The world looks a lot scarier with smudges over your eyes.
Making a point to look up more often.
I can learn a lot from being an active participant in the world, instead of just a body.
Figuratively, I want to understand what's happening in my life better.
Actively searching for the answer to why.
I've developed the habit of trying to see God in all the ups and downs of my life.
Seeing Him allows me to see purposed.
I don't need to know what's going to happen, but I do wish to know why.
If I can gain clarity from it, I can live with it.
And hat's all I'm trying to do, live.
I made myself laugh because I told myself that I needed to be more selfish with my time and efforts.
I laughed because I am already pretty selfish when it comes to what I do and don't want to do, which made me realize I should try the opposite.
The world doesn't need another person only thinking about themselves.
I can focus on myself while giving to others.
I can still accomplish my goals while helping others to accomplish theirs.
I can still love myself while loving others.
And if not, I am going to learn how.
It doesn't have to be all about me, and this year it won't be.
Collaborating.
Taking criticism.
Pushing my pride to the side.
Bring my ideas to life, if not for myself than for others.
Giving more of my time, energy, and efforts to others.
I wasn't doing much with them anyway.
I laughed because I am already pretty selfish when it comes to what I do and don't want to do, which made me realize I should try the opposite.
The world doesn't need another person only thinking about themselves.
I can focus on myself while giving to others.
I can still accomplish my goals while helping others to accomplish theirs.
I can still love myself while loving others.
And if not, I am going to learn how.
It doesn't have to be all about me, and this year it won't be.
Collaborating.
Taking criticism.
Pushing my pride to the side.
Bring my ideas to life, if not for myself than for others.
Giving more of my time, energy, and efforts to others.
I wasn't doing much with them anyway.
FEARLESS
There are a lot of goals I have this year that require me to stop being so afraid.
Step outside of my comfort zone, even more than usual.
Realize my strengths and minimize my weaknesses.
Focus on what I want to accomplish while tearing down what will get in my way.
Fear is a choice.
You choose what you will fear, why you fear it, and how the fear will effect you.
What we ignore is that we also choose when the fear ends.
I don't hate being afraid, but I do hate being negatively fueled by my fears.
I want to act despite them, not because of them.
This year feels promising. I'm not putting any pressure on it to be good or bad, I'm just going to allow it to be. I'll choose as I go.
peace and happy 2018, beautiful people!
xo,
BLT